It was Saturday, August 24th, 2019, when it finally hit me.
We’re three weeks away.
Three weeks until I’m a married man.
Three weeks until I hold my bride in my arms.
Three weeks until the moment I have waited to have for years is finally here.
I was excited. I was terrified. I was exhilarated. And absolutely scared out of my mind.
I didn’t know what to think or feel. Should I jump for joy? Do I weep for gladness? Should I run around, laughing and screaming at the top of my lungs out of excitement? Or do I seize up out of fear? Do I lock myself away and cry because of the unknown? Or should I shut down so I don’t explode from all of this going on inside of me?
I was excited, yet scared. Happy, but terrified at the same time. A shiver ran through me: was it excitement, or was it fear?
Questions ran rampant through my mind: “Am I ready? Are we ready?” Not just for the wedding, with preparations, but as two separate people becoming unified through a vow which we will never break? Are we ready to give up everything we’ve known as our separate lives and jump into a life together forever?
There was no doubt in my mind that we are meant to be together, but I questioned if I was truly prepared to make that leap. All of me said, “Yes! Jump now! Do it!” Yet I was still so scared to leap into the unknown because I didn’t know what to expect. I have no experience in this. I was, and still am, walking into a new phase with thoughts, visions, and expectations, but I didn’t actually know what was going to happen.
I had waited for this moment for years… and I didn’t know what to think or do now that it was here. I was so excited and scared and joyous and terrified and overwhelmed and just plain beside myself.
There is only one word I can think of to perfectly describe all of this that was going on inside of me: anticipation.
Anticipation is looking forward to something. It’s the thrill of waiting for that one thing you’ve wanted for years.
Isn’t this how we should be feeling about the Lord’s coming return?
We as a church are the bride of Christ. We’re looking forward to the marriage supper of the Lamb. For years we have eagerly awaited the moment we can walk through the gates and see His face… and we are so close to that moment.
Some will say it feels so far away. That we still have time. Time for things of this world. Others will question if it’s even the right decision. “Are you sure this is it? Well, what if you’re wrong? You’ll miss out on so much.” Some will even wonder if it’s real. “You know, this could just be your imagination and your feelings getting sensationalized. All of your efforts could be for nothing.”
One question will come up in our minds: is it even worth it? Is it truly worth all of the stress and worry?
Allow me to answer that question with a resounding yes. It is totally worth it.
Just as the preparation for my wedding had been stressful and sometimes tough to deal with, the preparations we go through on this earth for our Heavenly wedding can be difficult. However, just like how dealing with the complications in getting ready for my marriage were worth being joined together with my bride, it’s more than worth it to be joined with our Savior in the place He has prepared for us. Heaven and being with Jesus for all of eternity in His sweet, wonderful presence is going to be worth anything this world may try to throw at us. Yes, it may be extremely difficult at times here on earth, but just as I kept in mind how wonderful it would be with my bride in the days, months, and years after our wedding, keep in mind how amazing it will be to be with our Savior for all of eternity.
In conclusion, as I had anticipated my wedding day and being united as one with my bride, so much more should we all anticipate the return of our Savior, Jesus Christ, and our uniting with Him. What Jesus has in store for us in Heaven is far better than we could ever imagine.